Boo

I was nudged! I didn't realize how long it had been since I wrote anything. I feel so out of touch from the world when I don't come online often. It's wierd to hear about news on tv now when I could have easily learned it hours or days before. Since I'm a driving fool now with my new wheels, I can make more trips from my house to my dude's house with it's lack of internet. That needs to be fixed pronto!

I haven't had a cigarette in over 24 hours. Apart from a slight headache, I'm feeling pretty good. Of course, I'm stoned as fuck so that might be helping things as well. Still, I don't want to smoke all my life and even though I'm around smokers 24-7, I still think quitting is possible. I love smoking and Josh looks sexy as hell in my icon doing it but, I like my skin more and the fact that I still get asked if I'm old enough to see R-rated movies. No premature wrinkles for me thx.

I would consider this a pretty decent update if I do say so myself. I'm also incredibly horny and it's raining cats and dogs outside.

Well, my boy is officially moved into his place. After painting and putting everything in order, we christened each room in the house. Of course I had to leave my mark for shits and giggles. Everyone always secretly chuckles to themselves when you see people sit where you've had the shit fucked outta you. No stains of course, that's gross as hell.

I'm glad he's all done though I feel so outta the loop when I'm not near my computer. I'm just as bad as that South Park episode. NO INTERNET!!?!? HOW DO I LIVE???
I don't think I'm as bad as most. I don't go online on my phone or check other ppl's comps excessively when I'm not home. However, I hate to miss the lulz or something truly epic happening. You wanna be able to say "bitch plz I knew about that ages ago".

It's friday finally! It's time to be an absolute nutcase. There's always this antsy/jittery feeling on Friday that something big has to happen. Something that might get you thrown in jail if you're not careful. I'm always careful :). Here's hoping everyone has work tonight so I can party like I was meant to: In a drug-fueled haze.

Holy crap T.G.I. fucking F!!

I'm actually pretty excited because my boo has finally became an adult and got himself a house. Pretty damn nice one too. I'm just excited because I get to fill it with pretty stuff. He has no idea whatsoever when it comes to decorating so I basically get to go hog wild!! Hope he has the moolah ready lol.

I swear I'm in ONTD more than I am here. That place is too damn addicting! Plus, it's where I met my only friend. I always smile when I see someone I recognize like a dork. It's like "omg I know that cool person making that great comment" Feeling gangsta by association is the only way I can get down I guess.

Update on the friend i met on CL. We didn't speak for like a week and out of the blue he calls me yesterday telling me he misses my laugh. So we went to his place, smoked out of the coolest glass pipe I've seen in a while, and just had so much fun laying and cuddling. This is so so so so very wrong but I can't help it. I don't like him in that way and I don't think this will lead to sex so I guess I have nothing to worry about yet?
*sigh* I'm playing with fire I know.

"Seeing Sounds" is great CD. I missed N.E.R.D. like nobody's business! This has to hold me over until i get some new QOTSA stuff. Hell, I'm still rocking like a maniac to the old stuff. 3's and 7's anyone?

I have a confession to make. I totally met someone off of craigslist. I have never in my life met anyone online for any reason. I've always been in that mentality that everyone is a serial killer and they will dump my body somewhere if I were to meet them. This time, I threw caution to the wind and met up with him.
He's actually a really nice guy. I'm not sure what our intentions are at the moment but if it leads somewhere, so be it. What are the odds that he kills me on the 2nd meeting. brb writing last will and testament.

Seriously, he seems legit and he has a really nice house and 2 of the biggest, nicest dogs I've ever seen. Plus he smokes pot so it's always nice to have new smoking buddy.

Problem? I have a bf. I wasn't looking to have sex with this guy or anything like that. Hell, I'm not even sure why I made post..I just did.
I guess if nothing comes from it, I don't really have to say anything right? right?
Whatever, I'm saying whatever bullshit I can to make me feel better.
We'll see what happens.

I'm at my sister's house on her computer. I swear, she has the most perfect house. It's straight out of HGTV with it's colorful walls and art everywhere. I hope to have a place like this someday. Maybe someplace with a view of the mountains. I love snow.
That's a while away though. She's 31 and I'm still a stupid 20-something.

SATC was flat out amazing. I really wasn't expecting anything less. :)
Well, it's time for me to stop being anti-social. It's a birthday party and I'm on LJ lol.
Later babes!

I have to update this thing more since I actually have a friend now. HI LJ FRIEND!!!!
Seriously, tomorrow is my niece's birthday party. I hate parties. Also, it's a pool party. I very much hate pool parties. I got her this Hannah Montana mike and feather boa. Now, she's a superstar. I still have to go in order to give it to her. We'll see how it goes after I've slept on it.

I can't believe it's summer already! I'm supposed to take a trip and August that I've been getting my ass into shape for. It's hard being healthy! I just wish I could chain-smoke, eat cheeseburgers and not have to worry about my tummy or something equally as soft.
At least my ass is fabulous lol jk.

It's time to go toke. At least bud never gives me troubles.

I'm feeling very self-destructive lately. I don't want to cut myself of anything crazy like that but, I do just want to take a massive amount of drugs so I don't feel anything anymore.
I wanna rub my gums with blow and snort until I can't feel the tip of my nose. Then take straight vodka shots which I won't feel because the drips from the coke has numbed my mouth and throat completely. You know that's when you have Grade A blow: you can't feel a thing.

Anyway, as I'm number than I've ever been, then I'll take a pill or two so all my senses are hieghtened.
This might seem like something you do when you have a death wish but really? It's one of the greatest feelings to ever behold. The world just looks and feels different when you're totally smashed. I've done it more times than you can count. It's been 3 years since I've had a total break down like that and just not give a fuck if you found in a puddle of my own coughed up blood.
I feel like I've gotten better but I have my moments, like now, where it would make me feel loads better to be bad.

So instead of blow and vodka, I've taken a Vic and a couple shots of Whiskey. Pretty self-destructive but not totally over the edge. *pats self on back*

I need to find me some friends for this journal. Pretty lonely just talking to myself all the time. :)

Ugh. I've been so bored the past couple of days. Now tonight it's any different. Oh well, at least I have the Sims. Isn't that lovely? spending my friday night playing God. I guess that's the only way to go about it.

I've gotta start adding folks to this journal. All I have is communities on my F-list. How sad is that?? I'm lonely.

Holy crap I hate my boyfriend sometimes.
He can never make any decisions on his own. His excuse? I make decisions at work all day! I just want to relax at home. Oh that's nice! Everyone else gets you normal but when it comes to me you just want be led around by your hand all day. FUCK YOU I WILL NOT BE DOING THAT!!!
Why would he want that??? Because if something goes wrong, he doesn't have to claim responsibility. It'll be my fault because it was my idea. How fucked it that? 
So per usual, he's asking me what I wanted to do the next day. I was evasive because 1) I wanted to sleep in the morning 2) I didn't really want to see him so early. We hung up on a wierd note and I turned my phone off because I didn't want to deal with him calling me back.

Cue to this afternoon. I'm sleeping soundly (yea I slept late what of it?) and I hear a knock on my window. It's him asking about the phone. I've barely got my eyes open but I answer him the best I can.

I've been trying to call you since 9 this morning. We had plans."

Forrealz?? news to me!

To make a long story short, he was upset because I didn't remember the plans we had made on his day to spend the morning fucking. Just the night before, he was asking <b>me</b> what we were doing! Now all of sudden, "I made these plans on Monday. You should have known what was going on"

Can I, just throw a brick at you or something??  UGH

Honestly, I'm not that pissed. I've barely been up an hour and I'm waking and baking. What just annoys me is that if he knew this was what he wanted to do, why didn't he open his mouth and say anything?? Instead of leaving it up to me and then when I didn't deliver what he was thinking, it's now a problem and he's pissed.

It's just so unfair. What's so hard about opening your fucking mouth and telling people what you want?
I swear I want to punch something right now.
I'm done. This is some bullshit and I'm not wasting anymore time on it.

Lately I've been on this health food kick and I'm pretty happy about it. It's partly because I'm poor and fruit is cheap. I'm eating watermelon right now. You know what they say about black people and they watermelon!! lawlz.

I figure summer's coming and I wanna be able to rock some cute shorts and sandals. I'm getting my ass in gear again. If I can lose 20 lbs and I can keep going.

I bet since I don't have any entries everyone will think I'm a troll. I'm real I swear! I'm just starved for attention just like everyone else! 

First entry in this piece and I'm kinda excited. Let's see what fun stuff I can find myself getting into.